There are many things in life that I just don't understand. For instance, when you get really close to someone, whether or not they're in your family, they either leave or die. Right now, I'm experiencing the latter. Unfortunately one of my family members was diagnosed with cancer at the beginning of the year. He was given a year to live, but after his first chemotherapy treatment he had to be put on morphine and Hospice was called. I feel so bad because my mom, dad, and I were supposed to go up to see him for Thanksgiving (this was before we knew he had cancer) but we didn't go because I wanted to be home with my mom's side of the family. Now I'm really regretting not going, and I'm also trying to figure out how to see him before he passes.
It might seem like I won't have a problem doing this, but the thing is I had lost a family member at the beginning of the school year and I took two days off then. So asking for more time off from school seems like I just don't want to be here, which isn't the case at all. I love being at my school, it's just things happen that are out of my control and I really hope my teachers see that. The other thing is my schedule is about to get really crazy (this Sunday is my last Sunday off until May) and I don't want to miss anything important by going to his service, when I would really rather go and see him alive.
This isn't the first time that I've had to deal with losing someone from cancer in my life. I lost my Grandmother when I was in 4th grade. I think you remember that one post about my grandparents so I don't really need to explain everything all over again.
I'll keep you updated on all the happenings.
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