Low days

You know how if you sit around long enough you start to contemplate everything in your life and where you are in it? Well I'm there right now. Today it hit me, again, how I might be alone for the rest of my life. It's quite upsetting how I constantly have guys hitting on me, yet none of them want a serious relationship. There's only one other person I know who's in a similar situation I'm in, Nik. Yes that is his name, and the only reason why I'm using it is because I know he probably won't mind; oh and I have nothing bad to say about him. =)He's one of my best friends and basically the only person I trust completely since he goes through the same shit I do.
Anyway, the reason for this blog is I just don't understand why I can't have anything more than a one night stand, ex with benefits, or friends with benefits. I really want something more, but it seems like that's not possible with me. I just hope one day soon I can find a guy who isn't scared of a long term relationship and honestly likes me for me. Is that too much to ask for?