Who am I kidding?

Have you ever had such low self-esteem that you keep saying "Who am I kidding? I was never good enough for him." This is the state of mind I keep finding myself in lately. Honestly, I think it's because of the high hopes we are given that things will always be the way you want them. I'm not going to say I'm disappointed in the situation because I was actually expecting it to turn out this way. Maybe that was my down fall; not having enough hope in the situation. Or maybe, just maybe I was right in the fact that I wasn't good enough for him. You never know with guys these days what they're thinking. Whether they just want a hook up, a dance partner, or an actual relationship.

This state of mind is also due to the pressures society puts on girls today. And to answer guys questions...yes we are complicated, but only because of all the pressure we receive. There's no hope in understanding us really. Hell I'm a girl and I don't understand girls. We all have different mind sets, but we all do love to hear "you're beautiful" or "I love you". Those statements come with a warning though, don't say them unless you really mean them. Girls tend to get crazy sometimes when we find out you were lying just to get us into bed.

I think that I'm just going to have to go into the "I don't give a f***" state of mind now. Just go out with friends and enjoy being single. Things always seem to be better that way. Good luck to those who are in the same situation I'm in. And keep me updated with any progress you have made.